Monday, December 20, 2010

So thankful.





Some days I slip a bit, and get weary with the day to day battles of this world.

I begrudge the mountains of laundry, dishes and household chores... being ungrateful for the fact that we have so much more then we really need.

But the past few days, I have been keenly aware of all God has given me. Not material things, but the awesome relationships that He has given me.

A very dear friend of mine was in a serious car accident a few days ago. I did not hear about it until the next morning, but even though I knew she was going to be fine..my heart just broke. When i realized how close I came to loosing her, my mind just ran with the truth that life is a gift. We are not promised tomorrow.

I found a sitter for the girls, and headed to the hospital to see with my own eyes that she was ok. As I walked down the hall to her room, i had a flash back to a few years ago when another dear friend of mine was in the ICU fighting back after a heart attack.

My two friends are very similar in height and coloring, so seeing J in her hospital bed was surreal. It took a minute or two for me too gain my composure.

We visited for awhile and when she fell asleep from the new dose of pain meds, I quietly left and headed home.

I chewed on all of the what ifs and was soooo thankful they did not come to be.

Then today, i was again reminded how precious life is. Michael was walking across the parking lot at the mall today when out of now where, a car that had pasted by just seconds before, shifted into reverse and hit him.

I looked behind and saw my son in a twisted pose on the ground. My heart stopped. So did my mind. I could not comprehend why he was on the ground.

Then I realized what happened. As soon as i did, Michael bounced up stunned but ok.

A few scrapes. but he is fine. And I am thanking God for His protection over Michael and also Logan. Logan was walking in front of Michael. Had it been Logan, things would have been a completely different outcome.

so, i am up very late..happily doing a mountain of laundry.